Kisah milo.

Pada suatu pagi rabu yang suam-suam} indah.


Waiter: Ye encik. Nak order ape?
Anon:Bagi saya combo yang ni. *pointing finger at the menu*
Waiter: Okay. Encik nak air ape? Kita ada coffee,tea,orange juice and milo.
Anon: Ermmm... Bagi saya milo.
Waiter: Nak iced mile ke hot milo encik?
Anon: Bagi saya hot milo.
Waiter: Okay...hot milo ye.
Anon: Ice dia asing ek.
Waiter: Huh?
Anon: Saya nak hot milo tapi bagi ice asing.
Waiter:.....................
Me:iufhrrwuihfeiuhfiuerhffoqiuhfouerfiuhqrfuub 'Baik cakap je nak iced milo tapi ice asing.Bengong ke apa?' =___________="

While i'm still in the mood to update this space, here my new calculator. It's super cute! I know I shouldnt buy this because I've graduated and my old ones still usable! =p But with my current job, calculator is still most essential tool for me and I've been secretly drooling over my colleague's smokin' hot calculator for weeks now. Haha He didn't know that and I've been meaning to ask him where he got it. It was until last Sunday when I went to MPH carnival at Mid Valley saw this baby. I fell in love instantly with it though i hardly buy anything in white color. =p Okay enough with my ramblings, here are the photos!

Aaaaaaa Lamanya tak layan hobby! Ni semua gara2 malas memikirkan photobook cousin yang tak siap lagi. T_T sebab tu tak layak jadi wedding photog untuk sesape. T_T

Past and present.

Re-evaluate your decisions doesnt do you any harm.It's not a form of regret but rather, the stage where you'll find out how much you have grow.

I've encounter many disappointments in my whole 23 years of life and I believe there's a lot more to be faced and put up it. My recent encounter was something that I have to bear with for months long. It's tiring process of waiting and hoping, i was almost gave up! I cried every night thinking about it. I kept wondering why and asked Allah why do He gives another hard test to me after I just passed another test. Why He didnt give me a break? The world seems to crumble upon me. I was physically, financially and mentally exhausted. I started to hate everyone, I was mentally pushing everyone off the edge.  I sighed, the word "Letih" resound in my head. Becoming strong for ourselves isnt an easy task.

“And never give up hope of Allah’s soothing Mercy: truly no one despairs of Allah’s soothing Mercy, except those who have no faith." -Quran ,12;87.

During that time, I keep remind myself with this verse though at times, i become weak at knees and fell; face first (metaphorically speaking). Holding on and have faith are the only way through this.


"Sabar itu separuh dari iman."




Alhamdulillah. Things got better and trust me, I begin to see the reasons why my path becomes this way and it really is for the best.

"Dont complain,dont explain. Hidup ini tenang apabila kita kawal apa kita nak fikir, rasa dan buat, dan jangan dipengaruhi faktor sekeliling fokus pada menuju Allah, cari redha Allah , minta kasih sayang Allah dan sentiasa usaha mengenal Allah."- Prof Dr Muhaya

Some didnt believe me when i said i was having hard time and i couldnt bother to explain, hence keeping mum was the best solution (and still is). When things are hard, you dont need another source of negativity- be it your friends etc etc. I personally feel it's okay to keep some distance for awhile in order regain back the strength. If they are true friends, they'll stick around and no questions are asked.



I have to admit, this had changed me in some ways specifically, the way i see things. =)


Bye.

8.

1. I quote this para," Hating itu sebenarnya a confused form of liking. You tell everyone you hate them, but you keep yourself updated with their news just to keep telling people how much you hate them. LOL, the opposite of like or love is not hate, pal. It's neglect. So if you don't like them, don't bother about them."  -credit nani
She's right. No point in keeping update with the person you claim you hate. *making mental note on this one*


2. A person whom rarely i talked to nor i ever had a long conversation with nor has ever know anything about my personal life, called me a stalker. On my part, I have to admit that i am, i mean who doesn't? (Maybe I'm slightly above average but that's not the point.) But my problem is, I dont find myself quite okay with it (the person's claim). Being called once is fine but twice or thrice? I dont know, i just dont feel alright about it. I may sound like i'm just exaggerating it but I dont find it is okay for someone who isnt a friend to me to call me that. You're just an acquaintance of mine and that doesnt entitled you to go around and call me by names,seriously. Besides, you're not even in my list of stalking nor someone i couldn't be bothered to pay attention to. There are tons of people worth of my time and they are not you. No offence but this is the truth.


3.

=`(

I sew myself shut.

Pernah tak dengar pasal kita semua ni sebenarnya ada 7 kembar dalam dunia ni? Well, the validity of the statement is truly unknown to me. Wallahualam.

But the thing is, have you ever suddenly feel sad and wanted to cry so badly without any particular reason? All the sudden you just feel sad and you just want to be alone and cry your heart out. Have you? No? Well, the reason I'm asking this is because i do feel so at this particular moment-as I'm writing this. No kidding, no lies. I feel sad since morning and there wasn't anything happened earlier that could turns me feeling bitter. Seriously I cannot explain myself why do I feel this way.

That is why I wonder about having 7 twins in the world. I mean, if something happened to one of so-called my twins and she/he is feeling sad right now, this feeling I have is just simply because the connection we have between us. Does this sounds reasonable to you guys?

OR it could be,

My another half, whom I have yet to discover, is sad right now. I mean, being the other half, I should at least have a share on that la kan? 

Owh well, maybe it's just due to the imbalance of my female hormones. =/  Imnotinthatyouknowwhatphasenorintheprephasejustsoyouknow.