Past and present.

Re-evaluate your decisions doesnt do you any harm.It's not a form of regret but rather, the stage where you'll find out how much you have grow.

I've encounter many disappointments in my whole 23 years of life and I believe there's a lot more to be faced and put up it. My recent encounter was something that I have to bear with for months long. It's tiring process of waiting and hoping, i was almost gave up! I cried every night thinking about it. I kept wondering why and asked Allah why do He gives another hard test to me after I just passed another test. Why He didnt give me a break? The world seems to crumble upon me. I was physically, financially and mentally exhausted. I started to hate everyone, I was mentally pushing everyone off the edge.  I sighed, the word "Letih" resound in my head. Becoming strong for ourselves isnt an easy task.

“And never give up hope of Allah’s soothing Mercy: truly no one despairs of Allah’s soothing Mercy, except those who have no faith." -Quran ,12;87.

During that time, I keep remind myself with this verse though at times, i become weak at knees and fell; face first (metaphorically speaking). Holding on and have faith are the only way through this.


"Sabar itu separuh dari iman."




Alhamdulillah. Things got better and trust me, I begin to see the reasons why my path becomes this way and it really is for the best.

"Dont complain,dont explain. Hidup ini tenang apabila kita kawal apa kita nak fikir, rasa dan buat, dan jangan dipengaruhi faktor sekeliling fokus pada menuju Allah, cari redha Allah , minta kasih sayang Allah dan sentiasa usaha mengenal Allah."- Prof Dr Muhaya

Some didnt believe me when i said i was having hard time and i couldnt bother to explain, hence keeping mum was the best solution (and still is). When things are hard, you dont need another source of negativity- be it your friends etc etc. I personally feel it's okay to keep some distance for awhile in order regain back the strength. If they are true friends, they'll stick around and no questions are asked.



I have to admit, this had changed me in some ways specifically, the way i see things. =)


Bye.